2 days to go in PK

I can't believe I only have 2 more days of my 28 day panchakarma left.

Post shirodhara bliss  

Here I am in post treatment bliss. I'm starting to feel exponentially more blissful after treatments these days, though it's still not all rainbows and butterflies all the time. For a while I felt like I was letting my friends/family down when they'd ask me things like "do you have so much energy all the time" "is it the best you've ever felt".... because the answer at least 75% of the time is "nope.. not even close".

There are days I don't want to get out of bed because of the emotional or physical stuff that comes up. My skin breaks out, my aches and pains pop up, I get headaches... all the fun stuff.

And there are a lot of other days that don't feel particularly transformative or special either way.

Then there are the days and moments filled with self awareness and boundless energy and bliss.

What I'm learning is that this is all completely to be expected and I'm actively practicing "loving and accepting the process". Given the length of time that I've been cleansing, it could take up to 2 months after I leave my PK before I start to feel all of the benefits settling in. I'm not saying this as a "whoa is me" thing... I'm saying it because i want to be honest about the fact that this path towards self awareness and self love can be a bumpy one... but I think it's worth it in the end. So in the mean time I'll keep practicing acceptance and faith that things are unfolding perfectly.